slave "J" journal ~ no more hiding

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!

Made it in under the wire..before midnight on the 25th. i wasnt sure i would have time but i came home tonight and put these together, not quite as elaborate as i wanted and i really want to play with those strings of beads more, they looked nice standing up but i just couldnt let the season go with out posting something. I hope you all enjoy and i hope you have had a wonderful holiday!!!!!!!!!!!!

BTW: yes i taped the camera to the ceiling...what i will do to make you guys happy!! LOL

Boss Woman or Office Whore?

So as some of you may know i will begin a new job working from home so i am winding down my time in a public office and i wanted to take advantage of the "official" look before i left, so i thought a photo shoot was in order. Both the boss and the whore live inside me but i think these pics may lean towards the whore. i am guessing (tho you guys often surprise me) that the last pic will be one of the all time favs, i think it is every working mans fantasy. Enjoy!!!

Meet the Boss

She looks friendly, doesn't she?

She seems very accommodating, right?

Frankly i just enjoy the symmetry of this one

Asshole is still suffering the effects of the baseball bat

Taking these pics got me so hot i had to take advantage of the corner of the desk, i love how swollen my cunt gets when im excited.

i got even more excited so i climbed up on the desk

i know where i belong, tied under the desk ready to relieve the boss MANs stress (this one is for you JM xoxo)

oo la la!!!

Im so excited I had to post, I took some awesome pics today I am itching to share but I cant yet.. stay tuned!!!!!! Oooooo im so excited!

Obscene...maybe?

A month or so ago i promised something obscene. This was what i was talking about, however the idea evolved a bit. My initial idea was just holes violated by a baseball bat...just saying that sounds obscene doesn't it? It brings to mind non-consent, rape, violence....at least to me. And frankly that was what i was going to try to express. Clearly i would never want something like that to happen for real but in that grey area between what we want in reality and what we want in secret there are those thoughts floating around. Then of course comes the wantonness where non consent becomes desire and you enjoy that baseball bat fucking you.

Well that was the plan until i saw those socks and you all know i am a sucker for a theme outfit...so the rest is history, i decided to go in a slightly less dark direction. i do think the pics on my knees capture some of that darker feel. And i have to admit i have not been doing to much anal training lately so initially it was hard working that big bat into my hole and it was just something unpleasant i needed to make myself do to get the pics i wanted. But in a somewhat similar mood change to the "fantasy" it went from initially difficult and painful to enjoyable as my asshole became the loose hole it should be and i could easily ride the bat deeper and deeper in my ass. I think just being aware that my mood was changing and that i was starting to get off on it made me hotter and i inadvertently wound up were i started out wanting to be: a degraded mindless cunt fucking a baseball bat.

(on a technical note, i was having trouble with my flash and the pics are not as clear or warm as usual-sorry!)

if you pay attention to the writing on the bat you can tell i am not cheating or just creating an illusion

Nose Shackle

One of the fetishes that i respond very strongly to is dehumanization. Being viewed or used as an object or animal. Of course those that have followed along know that i am a pig and can on occasion revel in that role. i am not a huge fan of a literal interpretation of that, with masks and whatnot (mainly i dislike masks because i get so hot) but aside from that i like to manipulate my body and MY look to accommodate the change, not put on a "costume". Also i think the term pig when applied to a woman indicates so much more than being diminished to the level of a fat ugly animal, it is a judgement about you personally. That is why i like this nose shackle, its a very livestock feel that can be done authentically to me and my body. So it too indicates more than that i am an animal but instead a specific type of woman. i hope that makes sense. i think if circumstances permitted i would like a nose ring there, of course to be true to the aesthetic it should be iron but i would probably go for pretty silver, lol. i found that the shackle didnt hurt so much as exert a pressure that you respond to immediately if only because you feel that really really bad pain is imminent or that it would go from pressure directly to ripping out of your snout (lol).

In terms of review this was about 30 dollars, it is a bit larger than i would like and tends not to be symmetrical (one of my ocd pet peeves) because of the screw needed to twist it tighter, but once you get past that i think it was a great purchase, it holds securely and in general performs exactly as it should.