Dec 14 2013

Sorry for the long delay in posting. As i said before i have been sick and it has taken quite a while to get back to 100 percent. It is also the busiest time of year in the industry i work in, plus my company has been taken over and i need to be on point with the new big wigs so there has been somewhat of a slow down in the contact between Mastered and me. Plus, of course, it is a busy time of year for everyone including Mastered.  Because of all of that my official tasks are on hold until after the new year and things have kind of been in a holding pattern.  But, ironically, by taking that pressure off, taking the expectations off, by not really expecting fireworks- i find myself more powerfully excited by a new word or phrase used casually that just catches my imagination and sends me (us) down a road that is powerful and unexpected. Unfortunately one of the things i am talking about i am not comfortable sharing but there have been other smaller events in the past couple of weeks worth mentioning.

Mastered used to send me on a regular basis into the restroom at work to hug the toilet, not just lick it but actually hug it.  I used to find this very calming actually, i would get on my knees, wrap my arms around the bowl and lay my head on the seat and it just stopped any stress i was having. Some times he would tell me to thank the toilet for letting me be the filthy pig i am or tell the toilet it is better than me and that use to make me feel stupid but now on the occasions he still sends me in there it doesn't even bother me. But now he has started sending me to the bathroom to stand in the corner for periods of time. And i LOVE it. In the middle of a hectic day, pressure everywhere and i go into the bathroom, put my nose in the corner, blank walls in front of my eyes, repeating whatever Mastered felt like having me say that day.  My world comes back down to just obeying, i am mindless, no stimulation except that phrase over and over. i am calm almost instantly, five minutes flies by like it was 60 seconds.

One day last week Mastered was sending me to the corner every 2 hours.  While i was in the corner i was to fuck my ass with my plug. This is a different feeling than when i just repeat a phrase, it is not calming because the stance required to do this is so undignified. I have to literally press my face to the wall, stick out my ass, legs awkwardly splayed and fuck myself.  The day of the 2 hours intervals i was not able to do the last 1 or 2 cycles because i was in meetings.  During the time i was in meetings Mastered sent me a text demanding a pic of me fucking myself, which i obviously did not do. As i have mentioned before Mastered is always reasonable about my job responsibilities but i felt bad when i got home that night that i let him down. So i made him the video below.  By way of explanation I should mention that over the couple of days before i made this video i had spent a lot of time with gigantor stretching my ass, also the night right before this video i spent 45 minutes straight fucking my ass with one of my large suction cup dildos (smaller than gigantor but i remember when i was a normal woman i thought this dildo was VERY large).  Some of you may remember me talking before about a little game i play with myself: while i give my ass a hard fucking i try to recite all of my litanies, all of the phrases Mastered likes me to say-i was playing that game, and of course i also had my weighted clamps swinging wildly off of my tits so i lost track of time.  As a result of all my independent ass stretching/fucking plus the couple of times during the day that i did fuck my ass with my plug as instructed by the time i made this vid my pig hole was very stretched and open. I thought Mastered would be happy to see how loose i was so i decided to show him that even my plug has a hard time staying in my asshole now.

 

As you can see i can just push my plug out now. This looseness doesn't seem to present a real problem, only when i sneeze or cough. LOL. I like this video because it is just obscene, just wrong on some level. i feel like i should be embarrassed to post it but i am not-as they say "it is what it is." this is me and i am proud of it, especial since i know it made Mastered happy. Clearly i will never really enjoy a "regular" sized cock in my ass now. i look at porn Mastered sends me and i know i can get it bigger and i am still dedicated, not just to being so loose i cant enjoy when men use my ass but just in general to stretching to get as big a pig hole as i can- i would like Mastered to be able to double fist my ass when next we meet.