But here is what i am super excited about. All of my ass stretching has had concrete results, i am well on my way to being a gaping loose ass to fuck. Master sent me to the bathroom to do 25 fucks with my plug and when i was done i could not keep my plug in!!! My plug has been easy to deal with it for quite a while now so i almost don't pay attention to it anymore UNTIL i started readjusting and getting ready to go back to my desk and i realized that as i was moving around my plug was slipping out of me. I was so excited i couldn't wait to tell Master! It is one thing to be taking larger objects in my ass but proof like this that my body is changing is exhilarating. Pretty sure at this point that baring some Ron Jeremy kind of guy, i will get nothing out of having my ass fucked!! Then Mastered sends me this: "pretty soon it will be a gaping hole and we will start taking pictures of different objects in the hole, bottles and random large objects and of course we will keep stretching your ass so it will accommodate just about any and all cocks and with your clit numb you will be just an object for them, slut." oh how this fucking motivates me!! Sent me straight into a frenzy. So that was my big news today. i am sad thought because being stuffed all day is one of my favorite things. I am going to have to search for a larger one, i haven't seen bigger ones in the sex shops i go to so online i will go. So on that topic here is a pic of my nightly ass work (that is the date written on my ass so that Master knows i did my work).
Hi,
ReplyDeleteYes, continue to stretch your ass hole for your master...
A slave has not to have pleasure when she is used...
i agree
Yes ... I also want to know, dear J
ReplyDeleteJust some thoughts and feedback IMHO:
ReplyDelete1. As a slave, you are taking on whatever role and persona that your Owner desires....and the fact that you accept this so well, so gracefully, so fully is a testament to what a wonderful slave you are. you go to fitting rooms and wear a pig tail in your ass, you oink for you Master, you piss in your pig pen outside, you wear and display pig symbols. All of this said, you are also not just an "animal" but sometimes just a hole, to be used impersonally and just for the sole pleasure of your "User"...and I'm guessing this is part of the ass hole stretching. And sometimes you are still a thinking and emotional person, showing humor, intelligence, and even feistiness -- giving joking comments resulting in additional punishments. If you weren't still a person that Mastered enjoyed talking with and interacting with, I wonder if He would still spend as much time and effort with you. But you are pig now as He wishes most of your time.
2. I like that you are spending lots of time and effort preparing your ass hole for usage, probably by a number of other cocks. you know you will be a fuck hole and will only be giving pleasure, but are not to receive any pleasure yourself...other than knowing you are pleasing your Owner while you are servicing cocks in that most little offered hole.
2.It is still a scary thought to be used by strangers but i am anxious to get to it. I think that focusing on preparation maybe distracts me from thinking of how nervous i am. i like the perversity of Master knowing that is my favorite kind of sex but i will now, hopefully, be so used to large objects that regular sensations wont allow me to have significant pleasure. as you said only the knowledge that i am making him proud gives me pleasure. i feel that transference of my priorities already. i think alot of having a strangers cock in my ass while i look up and see master smile, even if it is sadistically.
Delete1. actually you would prob be surprised at how little we talk of anything other than issues around my training, that is pretty much our sole focus. there are small asides but for the most part we have kept it strictly business, as it were. in fact i think of him as an incredibly competent boss or mentor, i want to learn everything about being his perfect slut so there is no place for chatting about my personal life except as it effects my training. i think getting too personal allows for sympathy or empathy and there is no place for that in my training. that is why i respond so strongly to him-because his treatment and training is all rational, logical, dispassionate. i am a thing being taught to perform a function. i like that. having said all of that - i know i use these journals to unofficially communicate how i am feeling to him. but i am quite happy to be minimized in this fashion, i have many many (probably too many) people who would never do that so i need him to be the way he is. i do not lie when i say show one hint of weakness and i am all over it, lol.
Thank you so much for your compliments- on a related note i do think there are a few who read and watch and comment that i do rely on as a sounding board of sorts for my performance, i think you have standards very similar to Master so i always pay attention to your feedback...whew sorry for the long answer.
A chastity belt ?
ReplyDeletea real one in stainless steel?
very good idea.
But
believe me your master will have to make a choice.. wearing a chastity belt every day is an enormous constraint.
And it is not compatible with the healing of piercings holes... During at least 6 months (healing period) you will not be able to wear a chastity belt for long period without infection problems.